Today, I planned to wake up early. Get ready and complete my task.
Task planned today:
1) Meet Dr.Suseela (my supervisor) for her signature in approving my request to change supervisor.
2) Meet Dr.Kazi to discuss on my assignment topic.
3) Drive to Citibank to get my long awaited recommendation letter by them and meet my friends there.
4) Drive back to PJ to have lunch with Jegan.
5) Off home at 2pm
Tasks completed:
1) Get Dr. Suseela's signature already !!! WAHOOO.. Thanks for all who prayed... Im relieved and ALL Glory to GOD!
2) He suddenly had to go for a seminar or meeting.... =(
3) Jane my x-immediate boss on leave when I called her this morning on the way to UM.
4) I hope Jegan has time to see me... during his lunch time, since I am already here..
5) Not happening yet since it is just 11 a.m.
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Task 2 & 3 failed. I am now in the UM's library instead. Took books to read and tried to complete my work here, but I am on FB and blogs... I think I should stop and at least finish some of my work and assignments.. So tata!!
Monday, February 8, 2010
pictures
The new set..... we just bought this week.
my mamak section with friends.
the steambot with my huney boo..
the new big fat bean bag that i bought-pictures terbalik sorry-but who cares.. haha
Busy
Fri - all I knw I was busy with tuition classes and my own masters classes.
I had to do three hours presentation with the title "conversational skills in educational administration. 3 hours...sounds long.. but weirdly, the time flies. everyone responded and we had quite good discussions. I sort of replace the lecturer position that day. Well, everyone will have the chance to do that each week. ;p
I like meeting Jegan, he just made my busy day happy. =) (we ended up eating in our fav chinese restaurant after my night class, chilling and chatting away...
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Saturday- Had class from 11 a.m until 5pm. A long long day. again, the morning class, I had to present my slides and my topic on creativity and innovation. Lasted for 1 1/2 hrs. Good thing it went well since the night before I was a lil anxious because I had to present infront of 30-40 adults and most aged between 30-50... great.. well, God is good. wish i can give God a big big kiss. MUAH!
At 4.30pm, Suddenly, I felt my body aching and started to have backache (my liver whatever, dunno which part)... I did not drink and eat anything since morning.. WhATT!?? I forgot. hahha.. From that moment, I got really tired and feeling weird. Thank God my class ends at 5. Met Jegan and I kept whining and being a B*t*h to him. I knw I knw....
The things was, he was not mad at me, he was even sweeter to me.. Which got me irritated LOL. cause I was hungry!!! We went to subang because he suggested steambot for dinner. AND we tried a new "eat all you can" 3 in 1 steambot (you can grill and barbeque too) AND that made my day!! hahaha.. I was totally a sweetie after that. seriously, I like that place.. will post up pictures later..
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Sunday- my rest day. Met my school friends. about 11-12 people. Great to see some of them after so long... miss school =(
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today: woke up, felt the whole world is spinning.... (spin my head right now right now) STOP STOP spinning.. its not stopping.. at 12pm i took panadol. felt like puking after a while. And I did... vomit. Rested and slept. I have class today at 4pm. Thinking whether to go or not... NAh... here I am at home, and typing this....... ;p
haizz.. why suddenly pening.. pelik!
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I had to do three hours presentation with the title "conversational skills in educational administration. 3 hours...sounds long.. but weirdly, the time flies. everyone responded and we had quite good discussions. I sort of replace the lecturer position that day. Well, everyone will have the chance to do that each week. ;p
I like meeting Jegan, he just made my busy day happy. =) (we ended up eating in our fav chinese restaurant after my night class, chilling and chatting away...
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Saturday- Had class from 11 a.m until 5pm. A long long day. again, the morning class, I had to present my slides and my topic on creativity and innovation. Lasted for 1 1/2 hrs. Good thing it went well since the night before I was a lil anxious because I had to present infront of 30-40 adults and most aged between 30-50... great.. well, God is good. wish i can give God a big big kiss. MUAH!
At 4.30pm, Suddenly, I felt my body aching and started to have backache (my liver whatever, dunno which part)... I did not drink and eat anything since morning.. WhATT!?? I forgot. hahha.. From that moment, I got really tired and feeling weird. Thank God my class ends at 5. Met Jegan and I kept whining and being a B*t*h to him. I knw I knw....
The things was, he was not mad at me, he was even sweeter to me.. Which got me irritated LOL. cause I was hungry!!! We went to subang because he suggested steambot for dinner. AND we tried a new "eat all you can" 3 in 1 steambot (you can grill and barbeque too) AND that made my day!! hahaha.. I was totally a sweetie after that. seriously, I like that place.. will post up pictures later..
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Sunday- my rest day. Met my school friends. about 11-12 people. Great to see some of them after so long... miss school =(
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today: woke up, felt the whole world is spinning.... (spin my head right now right now) STOP STOP spinning.. its not stopping.. at 12pm i took panadol. felt like puking after a while. And I did... vomit. Rested and slept. I have class today at 4pm. Thinking whether to go or not... NAh... here I am at home, and typing this....... ;p
haizz.. why suddenly pening.. pelik!
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-debbie signin'out-
Monday, February 1, 2010
supervisor dilemma
I WANNA BE FREE FROM THIS CURRENT SUPERVISOR!!!!!!!
GErAM!I found my new supervisor for my project paper/thesis
He accepted me =)
I need to write a letter for this change
But I also need the approval from the current supervisor to accept my request
How am I to tell her.
Emailed her, waiting for her to respond. Wrote the letter anyway, need her to sign..
I have to see her which I don't like.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
recent stuff
I miss my sister! I am gonna miss my brother too. One in France, One going back to australia. They have been travelling to so many places (such a young age). So awesome. Wondering when will I be able to travel around the world?! I can if i want but thinking of the $$$ that I will be spending... is it worth?
Lots to plan for next year. Plans which cannot be reveal yet. $$$ is needed. should I be thinking of marriage too? that one need $$$ too. I am not ready for that yet but what if am not going to?Seeing friends my age getting married having kids, or soon to be married, comfirms I am not that young anymore, I am half a decade old. Crap. being an adult full of $$$ matters. It sucks. Not to say I don't have enough but it never gets enough. Either be contented with it, or work harder. Guess, I wont be going to visit my sis or bro this year. Maybe once I'm richer which I don't knw when. at least once or twice before they graduate, i must fly there...
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So funny, today pastor bernard preached on God may allow things to happen in your life, for us to be stronger and it is the will of God or something. My dad sat beside me, wrote in a piece of paper written" Lil girl, go France, for my good". I wonder what he meant, then he said, "Guat eng, and Jason have to study overseas for papa's good, and to dicipline them." Then, I asked him back, " Then why God never send me there instead?" He answered, "God wants Me to discipline You instead." LOL . Haha.. thats so funny. ;p either dad is totally a joker or he really mean what he said.. hemmm..
XXXX
For the passed days, I have been busy replying FB message to Jegan's ex-classmates. I was planning to gather them for his early bday celebration which turns out to be a gathering instead of a really bday party. Anyway, Jeg was not supposed to know anything until last night. But he just knew it..Maybe cause one of his friends called me when I was out with him. So hard to lie to Jeg. This 14 Feb will be our 6th year together, Valentine and His 25th bday! So important date but Chinese New Year falls on the same day!! Dang! I felt so bad..... I had to "balik" Johor and he had to spend his time with his other friends and not his gf on valentine. That thatssss sad... for me!!! I try to make it up to him by making this gathering happen and buy his bday pressie. I thought of buying him a hp which in the end I ended up buying him a Levis pants. I gave him an early bday present, the good thing, he likes it. He likes meeting his old friends who have not seen in years. So i am glad, won't feel bad anymore. Yesterday was our early bday celebration for Huney boo!! XOXO. ;x
next saturday will be early valentine and 6th anniversary outing with him =) (actually everyday also like valentine hahhaa).
XXXX
I supposed to lose weight by Feb but seems like its not working... CNY is coming..!!!!
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I managed to get a new supervisor to replace that "prejudice" supervisor. I am so happy!! But now, how to tell this recent supervisor that I don't want her anymore, what will she say.. ???
Hopefully i can settle it by next week. Pray for me those who knows what I am talking about ok. thanks !!
XXXX
I wanna watch desperate housewives now.. byebye
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Lots to plan for next year. Plans which cannot be reveal yet. $$$ is needed. should I be thinking of marriage too? that one need $$$ too. I am not ready for that yet but what if am not going to?Seeing friends my age getting married having kids, or soon to be married, comfirms I am not that young anymore, I am half a decade old. Crap. being an adult full of $$$ matters. It sucks. Not to say I don't have enough but it never gets enough. Either be contented with it, or work harder. Guess, I wont be going to visit my sis or bro this year. Maybe once I'm richer which I don't knw when. at least once or twice before they graduate, i must fly there...
XXXX
So funny, today pastor bernard preached on God may allow things to happen in your life, for us to be stronger and it is the will of God or something. My dad sat beside me, wrote in a piece of paper written" Lil girl, go France, for my good". I wonder what he meant, then he said, "Guat eng, and Jason have to study overseas for papa's good, and to dicipline them." Then, I asked him back, " Then why God never send me there instead?" He answered, "God wants Me to discipline You instead." LOL . Haha.. thats so funny. ;p either dad is totally a joker or he really mean what he said.. hemmm..
XXXX
For the passed days, I have been busy replying FB message to Jegan's ex-classmates. I was planning to gather them for his early bday celebration which turns out to be a gathering instead of a really bday party. Anyway, Jeg was not supposed to know anything until last night. But he just knew it..Maybe cause one of his friends called me when I was out with him. So hard to lie to Jeg. This 14 Feb will be our 6th year together, Valentine and His 25th bday! So important date but Chinese New Year falls on the same day!! Dang! I felt so bad..... I had to "balik" Johor and he had to spend his time with his other friends and not his gf on valentine. That thatssss sad... for me!!! I try to make it up to him by making this gathering happen and buy his bday pressie. I thought of buying him a hp which in the end I ended up buying him a Levis pants. I gave him an early bday present, the good thing, he likes it. He likes meeting his old friends who have not seen in years. So i am glad, won't feel bad anymore. Yesterday was our early bday celebration for Huney boo!! XOXO. ;x
next saturday will be early valentine and 6th anniversary outing with him =) (actually everyday also like valentine hahhaa).
XXXX
I supposed to lose weight by Feb but seems like its not working... CNY is coming..!!!!
XXXX
I managed to get a new supervisor to replace that "prejudice" supervisor. I am so happy!! But now, how to tell this recent supervisor that I don't want her anymore, what will she say.. ???
Hopefully i can settle it by next week. Pray for me those who knows what I am talking about ok. thanks !!
XXXX
I wanna watch desperate housewives now.. byebye
XXXX
Monday, January 4, 2010
Being lazy
i supposed to clean my table, closet and stuff during my holidays but it seems that holidays are over and my stuff are still unpacked. thought of cleaning it today but still my butt is stucked to the chair and busy writing this. i pretty fed-up with my laziness at times, but sometimes, its a treat. anyways, better get my butt up and start cleaning the mess. hopefully i won't waste time.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Moments with him 2009
random thoughts (looking back)
fall in love and fall out of love. That all I have felt it or gone through. back in school, most of my friends will not believe if i was or am single. I dont knw why. Maybe cause liking someone is just so easy to do in school. But it never last cause its all for the fun of it. Its weird, i am not the type of girl who gets to go out anytime i want or hang out with friends during weekends even in secondary school cause my dad was strict! but i was always surrounded by boys or boys issues. phone calls...smses...throwing stones at my window late nights...list goes on. always kene marah from parents dadada.. well, its not my fault though. i can like a guy so fast and yet lasted so short. Maybe a day, few hours, a week, a month?? I used to asked myself, how then next time, if i had to love someone like so long and get married and for my whole life... gosh...never will it happened??!
Most guys i knew were all the same. same techniques of flirting..."kaoing"...sweet talks...ohhh....the most dislike thing or i hate most is when my best friend or my own friend come and tell me, he likes me, which on the other hand, i dont! I like them as great friends. Why I hated the moment when they confess their likings or love to me 'cause i had enough of guy friends who are great friends to me became cold toward me when i told them the truth that, sorry...can't we just be friends??? Well, our friendship got cold.
I remembered back during Form 6, I shifted to Samad School in PJ because one, teachers in shah alam not that good when it comes to F6 subjects and another, i cant concentrate when guys (my friends) come telling me they like me... something like that. There was this guy who I sort of rejected him and he was my friend, guess what he did or said to me after that, "You think you so pretty ar...I can get more prettier girls than you and you can tell me you don't like me? Calling me sorts of names like B+*&^ and others...insulting me totally. I was shocked! Thinking of what happened, now seems funny. Anyway, we are friends now. (long story)
Shifted to Samad School, thinking to myself, no more stupid guy friends(not all, just some), being very unfriendly and stop talking to guys too much or too friendly who know, suddenly I made them think otherwise. But i was wrong again. Can you imagine, younger guys asking for my number, putting love notes at my windscreen, staring with stupid eyes, stalking me (no respect to seniors aka ME) it was nice to knw that you have admirers but at times, its too annoying. I am not pretty or ladylike or whatever guys love to see... im short, fat and ugly.. hehe... BUT there was one guy who stood up among all guys.. weird. I was attracted to him cause he was not like other ordinary guys. He was weird, hard to talk to, secretive, not friendly, not a pretty boy but he was just so magnetic.. ;p Someone who you just want to know about, not some guys who just rush to you and so easy to get like sweet talkers, not my taste cause I knw you are lying. The moments of flirts and admirers ends here....cause I met him.
The guy i saw. meet and wanna knw more... is the guy i am with now. people may not knw how is he or who is he cause he is not the friendly guy who first time you meet, you'll like. he's the type of guy who you'll like when you take the effort to knw him. Well, i m not talking to you..though i used the 'you' word. A complicated guy who I thought once were, but it seems so simple a guy he is once I get inside all thats hidden. Not a sweet talker cause he is himself no matter where he goes. If he does not like you, he does not like you. as simple as that.
I cant imagine myself loving a guy for 5 years almost 6 years and loving the moment every bit of it. The whole journey I have been though in my relationship with him, was not easy. It is not like a romantic fantasy and full of everylasting happiness story but a story that we strived through things and then, be strong together. I was into what people say, what people would think, what people would talk behind my back, what you guys were gossiping ( i am not now, thank God for that). Some people who I knw are looking at us and waiting for the day we be apart and seperated, so they can say, "I knew the guy wasn't for you" or "clap hands". Some may be sincerely wanting us to be together and get married. Despite any perceptions made, I leave it all to God to decide. I may not knw what happens next or the next few years but all i knw, 2009 and before, moments with him, i cherish every second. Wil i get married with him? I dont know, we dont knw. Only God knows. all I knw is i love him now ;)
fall in love and fall out of love. That all I have felt it or gone through. back in school, most of my friends will not believe if i was or am single. I dont knw why. Maybe cause liking someone is just so easy to do in school. But it never last cause its all for the fun of it. Its weird, i am not the type of girl who gets to go out anytime i want or hang out with friends during weekends even in secondary school cause my dad was strict! but i was always surrounded by boys or boys issues. phone calls...smses...throwing stones at my window late nights...list goes on. always kene marah from parents dadada.. well, its not my fault though. i can like a guy so fast and yet lasted so short. Maybe a day, few hours, a week, a month?? I used to asked myself, how then next time, if i had to love someone like so long and get married and for my whole life... gosh...never will it happened??!
Most guys i knew were all the same. same techniques of flirting..."kaoing"...sweet talks...ohhh....the most dislike thing or i hate most is when my best friend or my own friend come and tell me, he likes me, which on the other hand, i dont! I like them as great friends. Why I hated the moment when they confess their likings or love to me 'cause i had enough of guy friends who are great friends to me became cold toward me when i told them the truth that, sorry...can't we just be friends??? Well, our friendship got cold.
I remembered back during Form 6, I shifted to Samad School in PJ because one, teachers in shah alam not that good when it comes to F6 subjects and another, i cant concentrate when guys (my friends) come telling me they like me... something like that. There was this guy who I sort of rejected him and he was my friend, guess what he did or said to me after that, "You think you so pretty ar...I can get more prettier girls than you and you can tell me you don't like me? Calling me sorts of names like B+*&^ and others...insulting me totally. I was shocked! Thinking of what happened, now seems funny. Anyway, we are friends now. (long story)
Shifted to Samad School, thinking to myself, no more stupid guy friends(not all, just some), being very unfriendly and stop talking to guys too much or too friendly who know, suddenly I made them think otherwise. But i was wrong again. Can you imagine, younger guys asking for my number, putting love notes at my windscreen, staring with stupid eyes, stalking me (no respect to seniors aka ME) it was nice to knw that you have admirers but at times, its too annoying. I am not pretty or ladylike or whatever guys love to see... im short, fat and ugly.. hehe... BUT there was one guy who stood up among all guys.. weird. I was attracted to him cause he was not like other ordinary guys. He was weird, hard to talk to, secretive, not friendly, not a pretty boy but he was just so magnetic.. ;p Someone who you just want to know about, not some guys who just rush to you and so easy to get like sweet talkers, not my taste cause I knw you are lying. The moments of flirts and admirers ends here....cause I met him.
The guy i saw. meet and wanna knw more... is the guy i am with now. people may not knw how is he or who is he cause he is not the friendly guy who first time you meet, you'll like. he's the type of guy who you'll like when you take the effort to knw him. Well, i m not talking to you..though i used the 'you' word. A complicated guy who I thought once were, but it seems so simple a guy he is once I get inside all thats hidden. Not a sweet talker cause he is himself no matter where he goes. If he does not like you, he does not like you. as simple as that.
I cant imagine myself loving a guy for 5 years almost 6 years and loving the moment every bit of it. The whole journey I have been though in my relationship with him, was not easy. It is not like a romantic fantasy and full of everylasting happiness story but a story that we strived through things and then, be strong together. I was into what people say, what people would think, what people would talk behind my back, what you guys were gossiping ( i am not now, thank God for that). Some people who I knw are looking at us and waiting for the day we be apart and seperated, so they can say, "I knew the guy wasn't for you" or "clap hands". Some may be sincerely wanting us to be together and get married. Despite any perceptions made, I leave it all to God to decide. I may not knw what happens next or the next few years but all i knw, 2009 and before, moments with him, i cherish every second. Wil i get married with him? I dont know, we dont knw. Only God knows. all I knw is i love him now ;)
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